Life

So I asked a friend on Sunday how his life was going and he answered with "average good." Then I asked him what would make his life "good good" and he answered, "I just need to spend more time with Jesus. That's really it."

So, I know I haven't posted in a while...but I've been really distracted. To be honest, I've been a little preoccupied to think about much of anything. I guess I'm just kind of tired. Sometimes it is so difficult to put in the effort toward the things that mean the most. Why is that? I guess maybe that's why those things mean the most in the end...because you do put so much of your soul and energy toward it. It becomes you and you become it. 

So, if I'm not putting my time and energy into the thing that means the most to me...then what is taking it's place...and am I beginning to find my identity elsewhere than where I should? I really hope not. I need to probably think about that a little and make sure I'm not. But here's the thing...I'm tired. I'm afraid that I am entering a time in my life where I feel burnt out. How am I supposed to keep the passion burning? Maybe this is simply a time to learn some discipline. If that is truly the case, then I am failing dramatically. 

Don't get me wrong. I am loving my life right now for the most part. My job is amazing and my friends are the best. I am very very happy - how could I not be? If you knew me, you would understand that to be unhappy just isn't a part of who I am :)

I think I'm just tired of the routine. Maybe I'm getting bored. Maybe I need some change. But how do you get out of a routine when life is so busy that it is built around structure? And even in those few moments that lend themselves toward acts of spontaneity, I still get stuck in the routine of simply hanging out and not really doing anything different. I won't lie... I'm kind of tired of movies. I'm kind of tired of just hanging out. But what else is there to do? I'm just antsy. Maybe I don't feel like I'm really being used. Maybe I need to be challenged more. Maybe I need to go on some trip or take some sort of art class. I don't know. But I need to figure it out soon. I think my boredom (for lack of a better word) is starting to seep into areas of my life that I don't want it too. 

I think I will pray about it. That always works. God is always faithful. There are answers to be found and I am definitely looking and asking...